There will be training….
I am taking my time over trying to solve something for a client at work. I need to contact the client in order for him to help me. Unfortunately its not so simple, he starts telling me off ” This is something simple, hello hello , are you there” I quietly reply “I am here, listening to you” his tone of voice changes from pleasant to damn right rude “You are not giving me much confidence, how can I trust you , is Marc there?, is anybody else there” I simply ignore the ignorant fuck and pass the phone over to another college who jokingly says to me after he has spoken to him “That guy is difficult to work with, he is a asshole”
During the rest of the day, I felt pretty hopeless as many of the problems that piled up I found a struggle to solve. I even kept the nice college who took the call from me earlier from attending a client on time, he arrived several hours late.
I am not sure if I should feel so despondent, I am being paid peanuts for being a Junior Support Analyst, and told about a “a training package will be put in place” … its meaningless dribble .. I have heard my boss discussing quite openly behind my back to a client how he is hiring “temps” to get by or he is thinking about what to do with me.
Whatever that’s the reality of life, its possible to climb high mountains and breath and wonder at the sky that’s suddenly closer or fall into very deep black holes covered in smelly manure, wondering in desperation what life really has worth living for .